so it's just after 2 months
and it's the last quarter of 2023
You're back
and this time
the moments we met is short
but its really meant a lot to both of us
we din really make things clear
but we did really appreciate each other
Im so confused
confused of my own feelings
I didn't know and guess
no one can replace you?
Im so confused about
what is love
im so struggling to find a soulmate
end up I hurt myself again
but the things that I getting through
now I become more self love
and also more courageous to express myself
I had so much words to say to you
I did miss you sometimes
All those very little things and memories
Ya. Its been hard to let me face all along the facts
and forcing myself to forget about you
I think Im still working too hard on myself
I had too stress on everything
trying too hard to make everything is perfect
so, but I still learn to accept those imperfect to make improve
learn from the mistakes yea
and make all those basic things more stable
there is someone who keep stay by my side
take good care of me
mental support for me
but idk why every time every little things
still make me think of you
its just all about you
ohya so happy that day I did attend one coffee workshop
so I think you must be a pro in this also
cuz part of ur study related to science theory
so I learnt about coffee theory
its not just where is the beans from
but the varietal, processing, the way how to brew a cup of coffee
what is the grind size, roasting level, our pressure, even type of water
yea every little things matters
so I guess, I messed up every little things
still learning how to balance my life
and learning not to care too much
always giving too much of energy on others people
that makes me feel tired sometimes I guess
its time to read more books
and learn more things to improve my skills
ohya and as long as have a good rest
dun really have a good sleep since one month ago.
Anyway, good things take time
and everything in time.
I will see you again when I see you :)
