06-08-23

 so it's just after 2 months

and it's the last quarter of 2023 

You're back 

and this time 

the moments we met is short

but its really meant a lot to both of us

we din really make things clear 

but we did really appreciate each other

Im so confused 

confused of my own feelings

I didn't know and guess 

no one can replace you?

Im so confused about

what is love 

im so struggling to find a soulmate

end up I hurt myself again

but the things that I getting through 

now I become more self love 

and also more courageous to express myself

I had so much words to say to you

I did miss you sometimes 

All those very little things and memories 

Ya. Its been hard to let me face all along the facts

and forcing myself to forget about you 

I think Im still working too hard on myself

I had too stress on everything

trying too hard to make everything is perfect

so, but I still learn to accept those imperfect to make improve 

learn from the mistakes yea 

and make all those basic things more stable 

there is someone who keep stay by my side 

take good care of me 

mental support for me 

but idk why every time every little things 

still make me think of you 

its just all about you 

ohya so happy that day I did attend one coffee workshop

so I think you must be a pro in this also 

cuz part of ur study related to science theory 

so I learnt about coffee theory 

its not just where is the beans from 

but the varietal, processing, the way how to brew a cup of coffee

what is the grind size, roasting level, our pressure, even type of water

yea every little things matters

so I guess, I messed up every little things

still learning how to balance my life

and learning not to care too much 

always giving too much of energy on others people

that makes me feel tired sometimes I guess

 its time to read more books 

and learn more things to improve my skills

ohya and as long as have a good rest 

dun really have a good sleep since one month ago.

Anyway, good things take time

and everything in time.

I will see you again when I see you :)